Moving On.

So, as you all can tell, I have completely abandoned this blog because of the chaos of the year. I think I'm moving on to just updating my website, my twitter and my facebook and therefore must move on. It's mostly just stressful to update this thing and not very fun even though the idea is great. I totally wish I could be one of those avid bloggers with witty, interesting updates every day, but I'm the worst.

Thanks everyone for reading the past year or so and I'll see you on the flipside.

love, tati

www.talkingknotsfilms.com
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sin verguenza

don't look back

tomorrow is it - the movie begins! i'll be done on Sunday, the 8th so I hope to celebrate and reunite with the rest of the world then. i miss u.

talking knots

http://www.talkingknotsfilms.com

thanks kyle!

times a ticking

sorry for the lack of updates. that las one was pretty hyper.

yesterday we went and hung out with soccer players in McCarren Park. Soccer is awesome. I used to play in high school and i looked amazing. haha.

beyond that, we went and hung out to see if they would be down to be in my film and let my two actors join them in a scene. Lisandro, an argentian soccer player who seems to manage the team, was totally into it which is great. It looks awesome at night too.

next, i need a kitchen... a restaurant kitchen...let me know if you kno anyone. :)

casting

looking for Jesus Ochoa - he would be PERFECT for the part of my lead in my film. YES. Have a script. YES. Like the idea. YAY! Have a DP who's cool.

So things are progressing.

this is Jesus:


we're trying to get him but its a long shot.

i'm actually super nervous with casting. its like a weird version of dating but totally different.

also happy to annouce that my film and Samina's whom I am producing has been sponsored by the following:

Jana Water
Vitamin Water
Kariba Farms
EarthWare
Bagel Smith
Bare Fruit

yeah! still working on like 20 others, but this means we don't have to pay for a lot which is great because fundraising didn't yield enough for my film.

time the eternal revelator

I've been dealing repeatedly with 'the darkside'. this happens usually after extended periods of staring at a blank Final Draft document. Also, I've come to realize that I often meander down that dark, horribly narrow road after I talk about my film ideas. this is a pretty bad sign, right?

Last semester, I was so open to whatever comments I got. I didn't get upset once - as I remember - but now because of the heightened stakes and the mounting pressure, I feel completely and totally lost in oblivion. I've written about 15 drafts, thrown out an entire script idea, wrote various character biographies, listened to many songs that ere supposed to inspire me, visited a thousand different coffee shops thinking its what i need to write, and finally cried endlessly to a couple different people, including my entire writing class.

now, if you know me, i'm not often crying. i think i'm in an emotional hole where sometimes I feel like the only solution is to buy a plane ticket to Southern India, and ride a motorcycle around with some random strangers from Venezuela. This sounds ultimately perfect for my state of mind, but also like i might be completely missing the point.

I realize that in these moments, where you sit in a barren landscape of creative emptiness (dramatic writing, yes!), that these moments are actually really essential. I think that when things come so easy all the time that in fact the work suffers. And, more importantly the artist suffers because they never go deeper than the immediate and they never grow from the difficulty of working through an idea.

OK, so thats positive. I'm trying to consistently remind myself of positive affirmation because so many people i know are incredibly negative, all the time, and not only will this not allow you to learn from the mistakes you make but also ages you.

I'm working now. I'm going to positively finish a draft this weekend. I WILL.